Day +7... Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow...

On day 6, Sam woke up and her pillow was covered in hair. By today it's pretty much all gone. I wish I could write that our rational side won out here... After all she's gone through and the number of things that still cause her pain, this is not one of them, but as her soft, fine, baby curls fell to the ground throughout the day, so did our tears. Something about it is just hard to swallow. The Sammi I picture in my mind: smiley, chubby, and goofy... Is not the one looking back at us.

We know she's still in there and we can't wait to have her back, but I think that's just it... It's one of the final exclamation marks reminding us that this disease has taken a lot. Some days we just have to let ourselves acknowledge this a bit.

We warned Kaeden over face time with a fake, cheery smile that the yucky chemo made most of her hair fall out. He didn't miss a beat and responded, "well that's ok...bapa and Sammi are just going to be twins now!". Brandon and I laughed out loud and I so wished I was talking to him in person at that moment instead of looking at him through a screen so I could give him a big hug. That kid can snap me out of anything and put a smile on my face in an instant ... He's right ... It's just hair. It'll grow back and she and bapa are twins! :)))

These are "before and after" shots. I hope those soft little curls in the back return soon and Kaeden's super marrow starts to kick butt so we can get our Sammi back!!!