Day + 96...

      We haven't written in awhile because life has been even more hectic than usual over here. We had a sewer line break outside of our house due to "the city" doing work throughout our neighborhood. This caused extensive damage to our house in several rooms and two levels. After a tremendous amount of research, pleading, and coordination to get the clean-up/construction work under way ASAP, it then took a lot of brainstorming and planning as well to find a place where Sam could stay during the work where she didn't have to fly to, wasn't a public hotel, and didn't have any pets/other kids germs etc...:) Luckily we are almost done with most of the work and we were able to drive to Brandon's family's house. They were kind enough to find a pet friendly hotel to take their sweet dog too as well!!! Very much a life saver for us!

     Although it was a nice change of pace to get away for a few days, we returned just in time for 8+ hours of clinic on Monday. Sam needed an IVIG transfusion to help boost her "passive" immunity. Although she has an adequate total number of WBC (white blood cells), her b cell and t cell line is still depleted and will be for at least a year. This injection takes 3 - 4 hours and she has to have "vitals" taken every 30 minutes. Her EBV numbers have gone from 6,000 to 12,000 to 14,000 and this week to 11,600. We are still watching these VERY closely and every week I anxiously wait for the phone call on Tuesday to see where we are at. I'm not sure this feeling will ever fully go away. The fear, the waiting, the lump in the back of your throat...

    From there, we had a follow up with the GI doc regarding her ongoing colitis. We are starting her on a new medication and if possible, slowly taper her steroid down more. When I asked the doc, if she can give any indication as to where this is headed, she responded, "that she hoped Sam would grow out of this as her body continues to adapt to its new immune system and that we won't be having this conversation in 3 or 4 YEARS!" Unfortunately, how they typically treat colitis is the exact opposite of what we want to do to avoid "activating" the EBV in her system. Typically immuno-suppressants in conjunction with antibiotics are used to treat colitis and thus the GI doc would want to "up" her steroid and cyclosporine to see if there is any positive impact, but given the EBV is the more dangerous factor and the colitis seems to be getting slightly better or has at least stabilized, we would like to taper both of these down as low as possible to allow her limited immune system to keep the EBV stable or hopefully decrease.

      As day +100 approaches, this is typically a significant marker in bone marrow transplant recovery and we are very thankful that this day has come for Sam! In many ways, it is almost hard to believe this happy, energetic girl is the same one that didn't eat, walk, or talk for months and tolerated an unthinkable amount of pain. At times I feel like I will never forget one minute of the journey and other times, it feels like a blur. Overall though, we truthfully did hope to feel less anxiety at this point about the EBV and the ongoing colitis. For us, this day will feel pretty sweet for sure, but it only makes us more anxious to get to the one year post BMT marker and be able to live a life with more freedom, fewer life restrictions, and less fear! Someday.... Someday...